hmph.future?

Thinkin about future always attract myself. I dunno, but it’s kind of exciting topic cause we’ll know; future is a mystery. And something that we dunno even can’t predict exactly how it will be end, always interesting.

I remember about my childhood dreams. Different from kids usually which dreaming will be a doctor when they grow up, i’ll never did that things. Even now i can’t remember why being a doctor isn’t attract myself since i was child. I ever dreaming being a Putri Indonesia you know.. but not for doctor, never. When i was in elementary school or junior high school; i don’t exactly remember; my mother ever told me to be a doctor or a teacher. She said that girls should choose such kind of profession. And i remember that i answered her loudly ”i don’t wanna be a doctor!”

And you know, she never told me again what she wanna me to be.

Even she never ask what i wanna be.

Till when she think that i’m enough grow up to talk about future, sometimes she ask to me like where will i wanna continue my high school study or have i already think about the major studies i will take in university. Just that. But she never ask me what kind of profession i wanna be. And i have no idea why she did that.

Some months ago after i being a DKV student i’ve got a SMS from my mother. I am not sure how it begin but she said that she and my father will save enough money so i can use it as a modal to open my own work after i graduated. It touch my heart a lot. I probably ever told them that i don’t wanna work for people some time ago, which make they assume that i wanna open my own work and that is why made them prepare modal for me.

I reply my mother’s SMS as:

“i wanna be a lecturer”

And she said that she was happy to hear that so they don’t have to prepare modal for me, which i know exactly could in large amount.

And in the last meeting we meet i’ve told her that i entered a French class. She asked me am i plan to take master degree on France that’s why i entered the class. I said nothin at her but actually yes. One of my biggest dream is goin to France. Ago, i dunno what will i do there i just know that i really want to go there. I’ve attracted with France since i was child, and gettin bigger when i was in junior high school when i read Eiffel..Im in love by Rachmania Arunita. A teenage novel which take setting in Paris. But know, after (i suppose) i enough mature, taking master degree in France could be fun.. more than that could be great. And you must blame Andrea Hirata cause make this dream become a desire!

Oh yeah plus Laskar Pelangi effect. Damn :)

But God know there’s no way to go there with my own money; my parent’s can’t afford it. The only way to make it able is when i get the scholarship to go there.. or i could save enough money (haha)

I won’t talk bout it more, but i hope i can try my best to make it come true. Amin..

Anyway back to lecturer thing above, actually i have no idea what will i be till recent time when i entered to university. Even in the beginning i become a university student i still have no idea what will my major studies made me turn out!

I suppose it startin when i got a Pramana class. It teached by Miss Oyin or we usually called her Mbak Oy.

She’s not a perfect lecturer at all i know but there is something in their way of teaching that time made me think; well yeah, this kinda things i wanna do! Teaching looked so exciting that time. And like goin to France, this become a desire too..

I know most of my friends dreaming working in advertising biro after they graduated. Design a billboard, doin animation project, et cetera. For myself, i’m not sure about it. Working like that could be fun i know but i don’t take it in first priority. I dunno, but sharing our experience to others in the way of being a lecturer sounds so.. i can’t find a perfect words. Sounds so exciting, sounds so challenging, sounds like i can really give something to others.

And being a lecturer is not mean i can’t working to design things right? Just see hermawan tanzil which success with his Le Bo Ye but also being a lecturer in IKJ.

It’s only about priority, which one you take higher to another.

Being lecturer couldn’t be the main source of money. But like i’ve told; it is desire. Maybe it doesn’t give us much money but i hope i can take it in first priority when i’m ready to work later. I hope my side work can support my main desire. It’s not always everything which earn much hsould we take higher than everything right?

And the manifestation of our responsibilities to education i suppose, this being a lecturer.

By the way in this 3rd semester i’ve got an Illustration class. The lecturer is Miss Senja or Mbak Senja or Madame Senja :D. i’ve quite long curious about this woman. she was so cute in her retro look.. and thank’s God i really enjoy her way of teaching. Mbak Senja is another person who give me more influence to be a lecturer. No, she didn’t said so but her way of teaching, her smart appeals which turn out that influence me.

Mbak Senja is also a person who made me at least starting to realize what is i wanna be in this DKV major studies. In this wide studies, there are many profession which you can take later. Are you prefer to concentrating being a copywriter (who made a jingle for advertising), a web designer, an animator (made a moving object for adv. or cartoon movie i suppose) or even an illustrator. With her task that she gave in Illustration and DKV History (she teach it too), i realized that i’m strong in something which need craftmanship, hand made craftmanship. I’m not so great in the use of graphic software, i’m late learning about it. But i never complaint everything that doin by hand like when we did re-design for packaging. I choose to re-design tea packaging with Art n Craft style which identically use a framing of knotty organic elements. I did it manual by watercolour. Everybody said that how diligent i’m drawing such a fuckin complex organic elements and i must agree that at least i did it better than my other task. And when we have a Cut Paper task for Illustration.. It’s just like a collage made of paper. The key is your carefully sticking the paper one to another to make a nice picture. I must agree again that at least it better than my other tasks. Everything that doin manual hand should turns out good.

Um yeah. Lecturer and an illustrator sounds perfect match. But who can predict future exactly? We just can see then..