Twenty Two!

[sketched in Adobe Illustrator CS3 then colored in Adobe Photoshop CS3]

 SMILING FACE

I’m officially 22 nooowww hahaha! So how does it felt? Hmm quite strange than the previous one I suppose.. I wasn't feeling well along nite so I decide to take an early sleep (at 7 pm!! Imagine that!) *skip karaoke agenda with my colleagues. Too bad..

A very happy dream made me woke up and.. whoa, that’s already 12.30 AM! Teehee..  So many messages on my phone, most of it were from my pals, oh I felt overwhelmed by happiness :)
Anyway.. here is random things about my birthday:


1.    Dream which made me woke up was about my bf came to my house in the early morning haha.. I felt so happy till I woke up and realized that it's still dark outside and he wasn’t there. Actually he was sick in the nite before I have birthday, so I didn’t ask more from him, I’m okay with that, or at leat I'm pretending to be okay. Whatever. Final Projects finally beats him and he need to take a rest instead of staying late for me. I suppose I just miss him so much so I have that kinda of dream haha.. We haven’t meet almost a month, our commitment to keep things balanced *roll your eyes if you want to haha...

2.     First thing I learned in my new age is ask less accept more. Talking about something above :)

3.    …and birthday shouldn’t only mean we’re special on the day. But the most important thing is how to do something special to people around us :)

4.    First dish I ate was Silver Queen Chunky Bar Orange Peel flavored ahaha.. I woke up and take it straight from refrigerator. Chocolate made my day, yayyy!!

5.    I didn’t take a bath before sleep in the night before haha..

6.    I slept with my Research Design class material beside me. Horrifying, yes.

7.    But still.. I feel blessed. Thank you Allah :’)

8.    My brother still awake, online-ing. But he say nothing to me haha.. Don’t take it wrong. People may call it strange but he already remembering me about my birthday since previous day hihi.. Birthday greeting is kinda formal thing between us. We both know other well so I don’t need any greeting to make sure that he cares about my special day :)

9.    I felt a little dizzy. I’ve been lack of sleeping for weeks :)

10.    I planned to write about birthday post as soon as possible.. And here we go, I’m on my way presented it to y’all :)


Oh just a lil bit fact, I’ve got trouble with my colleague previous days ago. That problem made me sad and I cried a lot. I’ve been asking to myself what’s wrong with me but ended up nothing. But then I remembered one cute lady that told me my writings show how lively I am (do you think so, readers? She is so sweet saying nice thing like that :) ). What she said made me thinking; well, I may look the mellow one, sometimes I’m complaining, whining.. But mostly I’m a tough person and I really appreciate life. That made me become a happy person most of the time and I hardly crying or distressed. Is that the point of lively? Hihi… Anyway that becomes a great support for me. I forget my problem in seconds. I try to take easy of him and made a fun of everything bad he said about me hihi.. We can’t please everybody in the world after all :)


Well enough then for my birthday post! Don't get bore with it but I wanna say again that I feel so blessed today.. Thank you Allah, not for always gave perfect things happen in my life, but let me see life in perfect way. I’m so happy I have You and thank you for staying with me always :’)




Welcome life! I’m 22!!! :)

Healing by Crying

[Healing by Crying]

Adobe Illustrator CS2 sketch work then colored in Adobe Potoshop CS3

When you cry, you heal yourself. I can’t be more agree with this statement. How happy if I can cry and let things out. Ah :)


Anyway this won’t be a melodramatic post hihi..  Actually I’ll get my ‘period’ soon so that may be a good reason to be a lil bit mellow hihi.. *that was my excuse for several days ago. But for now, I’m happy as you all hope, ready to face all the challenge of life, ready to move on, ready for Design Research class!!! Ups, that is the reason I wrote this post :)

Regret always comes late. That’s lame, I know. But why people keep did it? That is mystery. And I did it again, regret about something that I fully realize, and was my entire fault, my full responsibility.
Bad time management, postpone small task, little things that become a big hill of pending tasks. Oh how many times I should have faced it? Am I never learned? Pathetic.

This semester I have Design Research Class which commonly known as pre-Final Project. You do half of your Final Project in Design Research Class. Choosing the subject, do the researches, polls, interview, etc. I won’t babbling much about it cause it will make me sad (again) but simply said if you don’t pass this subject, you won’t get permission to do Final Project next semester. If you don’t do the Final Project next semester you will be late minimum one semester  from your graduating time. See the problem? No?

For some of us, that wasn’t big deal. For me, it’s big problem. No, it’s not about my parent. They taking care of me fairly and as long as I have done the best, everything is ok. But have I try my best? You should know why I feel so ashamed of myself.



In the deepest of my heart I’m afraid. I’m afraid I can’t deal with fail. I don’t hope to, but I know I should prepare for the worse too. I should learn dealing with (naudzubillah) fail.



It’s stupid to ask God to turning back time and regret only makes me feel worse.So I decided to move on, do the best in the rest of the time.

And I should believe that whatever the result is, God will give me the best. And God won’t give me something that cannot be faced by me :)


Bismillah!

Counting Days

Hello readers! Are you doin fine? Mine’s up to no good haha..But it’s no big deal, at least for now. I’ll tell you later :p

New Year’s Eve always be special nite for me. Not because I have birthday on first day of January but in 31st of December, yay! What make it so special because it seems like I only have one day in my new age, then whoops, the next day, in 1st January people count my age based on the year. So I grow older one year more in the day right after my birthday. Get my point? Hihi..

After all like everybody does, I feel very enthusiastic counting the days. Six more days then I’ll be 22. 22 may not seems so special like 17 (when I celebrated it with around 40 or more high school buddies, barbeque-ing, fireworks, you name it) or 20 (I’m officially early adult.. bye bye girl, hello woman! :p) but this year I feel blessed, beloved, that’s why I’ll be thankful to God for gimme this fabulous year. Thank you Allah, for staying with me always. I love You.

But in the other hand, birthday can be suck. Who wanna grow older honestly? I want to be forever young of course! Life becomes so much complicated the more we get older. So in case to cheer up myself in my upcoming birthday, take a look on my wish list, eh? And maybe you’re the generous one who will make those real for me? :p

1.    iPod nano new generation
2.    Diana F+
3.    Mini tripod
4.    Long sleeves black tee
5.    Holiday ticket to France
6.    A bunch of roses..or sunflowers
7.    Easel for painting
8.    Scholarship from any art college abroad hahaha!
9.    World peace (Mm?)
10.  Indonesia becoming nicer place to live, no flood, no poverty..
11.  Mm... *skip
11.    ...(I suppose it's time to end it hehehe..)


Please don’t care about the number one. I already bought it for myself (welcome home my unyu* silver iPod nano!). Pathetic? Not for me. In my opinion, the first thing to do before you’re trying to honor others is by honor yourself. Giving yourself thing that you dreaming of is one of the good examples :).
For number eight I hope Rector from any college I have mentioned about read this post, eh? Haha..
Number nine and ten..well those are nice of course.. but come on.. Seem won't happen in the end of this month, talk about realistic :p


Except those things above, sooner or later I’ll make all true by myself. Amin.


Oh and for my bf if you read this, PLEASE DON’T MIND. I know you’re thinking of giving me any surprise, and that idea is so lovely.. But you have hard times lately; both time and energy become so crucial. All you have to do is just focus on your final project; I won’t ask more. I’m okay, please don’t worry about me. I won’t be a cry baby only ‘cause you will be working on my birthday. No big deal, I’m serious. Really! Please become egoist only for this thing, okay? :)

So I think we get into the end of the post! Happy for you all! Ciao fellas! Much love from me! xoxoxox



*unyu is the Indonesian slang language for 'cute'
 

Beginning

(I'll be using Indonesian. Sorry foreigners :p) 

Kalau 5 bulan yang lalu saja kalian bilang bahwa saya akan berkomitmen dengan cowok yang pernah saya potret untuk buku 25 Mahasiswa Inspiratif ITS, saya mungkin bakal ketawa ngakak. Cause honestly, who will guessed?

Tapi bahkan saya sendiri yang menjalaninya tidak pernah menyangka bahwa kami akan sampai ke titik ini.

Namun apalagi kalau bukan takdir namanya? Takdir bahwa hasil foto kawan saya begitu jelek sehingga saya harus turun tangan untuk melakukan pemotretan ulang? Walaupun hasilnya belakangan juga tidak terlalu sempurna ;p

Perkenalan formal yang dilanjutkan proses adding via facebook dan twitter. SMS yang dibalas dengan seperlunya, wall facebook yang tidak berbalas… adalah hal-hal yang terjadi antara kami sejak Juni lalu hingga sekitar awal Oktober.

Mungkin takdir jualah yang membuat pikiran saya terlompat padanya kepada ketika bingung mencari guru les untuk adik sepupu saya. Dan saya yakin dia tidak mengira bahwa informasi sederhana mengenai pameran lukisan akan membawa kami ke percakapan-percakapan selanjutnya.

Mungkin juga ini karena timing. Karena apa yang membedakan kami bulan Juni  lalu dengan kami yang sekarang? Karena sejak awal pun saya merasa he’s kind of good guy. Tapi apakah good saja akan membuat kami melangkah lebih jauh saat itu? Nope.

Perhatiannya. Penerimaannya akan diri saya, apa adanya, yang membuat saya jatuh hati. Dan mendadak lagu Dia dari Maliq and d’Essential jadi theme song of my life. /Dia melihatku apa adanya/ seakan ku sempurna../ 

Pelan-pelan good menjadi more than good, then different, then special.

Then I found myself falling in love

Dia bisa menjadi partner yang selalu men-support. Bisa menjadi guru yang memberi teladan. Bisa menjadi seorang abang yang mendengarkan keluh kesah adiknya. Bisa menjadi seorang kawan yang selalu membuat saya tertawa. Bisa menjadi seseorang di mana saya tidak takut untuk menjadi diri saya apa adanya.

Dan dia yang membuat saya berani menghadapi hidup. Cause life is all about taking risks.

Mengutip kata-katanya, kita berkomitmen bukan karena takut kehilangan, tetapi karena banyak tujuan yang ingin dicapai bersama. I’m thinking about it for a while and found that he’s maybe right :)

Semua yang diniatkan dengan baik moga-moga akan berakhir dengan baik juga. Sampai saat ini pun kami bepegang kalaupun semua ini tidak berjalan dengan semestinya, we’ll end as friend. Karena dengan begitulah kami memulainya..

Sekarang saya cuma bisa berharap bahwa seterusnya akan ada orang yang bertanya pada saya how was your day? And really mean it..*

Seseorang yang bilang "I’ll call you in the end of the day" saat tidak ada kesempatan untuk bertemu..

:)

Jadi malu :p 

Bismillah.

*terinspirasi dari quotes Cassandra Niki di Love, Stories, and Dream

Oh New York!

Beautiful, isn't ?

images taken from here

Munch Munch

Found this vintage-packed chocolate in a supermarket near my campus. I just love at the first sight with its packaging :) Uber cool, eh? And later I found that it tasted quite good too.. Chocolate always makes my day peeps! :)

 

I’m not that kinda person who crazy with this JCo brand. As long as I remembered, I never hangout in its cafe. But yes I do love JCo donuts. In my opinion JCo change the way we see donut as we saw it before; huge, till one donut is enough. But after JCo was coming, we bought donuts not in pieces again, but in dozen :) My favorite is Miss Green T (green tea flavored) and Al Capone (the one with almond on it )

       Soyjoy!!! I never care about weight gain, trust me I’m craving to be a lil bit fat! But this snack, God, I don’t care if it will make me stay in this weight; I love Soyjoy so much! My favorite is the strawberry flavored. Yum! :)

Now tell me dear readers, what snack do you like the most? I'll happy to know yours :)

Super Sorry!!

Sorry dear readers!! I should have told you before that the upcoming post will be Bandung Trip part two. Oh my God, it takes almost two months only to write down a serial post eh? I keep my promise that I’ll write down it all, I do!! But many things happen lately, and working in such long post feels hard :( I’ve just finished half of it... 
But please wait, I’ll do it!
*more of it, my bf seems like enjoy the first post so much. That made a lil pressure on me to write the second part at least as good as the first one :))  


Pardon moi readers!! I’ll fix it soon! I swear!


So in order to keep this blog alive I’ll write some short post till the second part is ready enough. I’m inspired by our lovely fashion blogger Diana Rikasari who post her daily life in such short post, but regularly hihihi.. I can’t believe you haven’t know her.. I check her blog every time I go on line :)


I’ll catch up soon! Enjoy your life :)
xoxoxoxoxo

Only I

 

I hardly travel alone by plane.  But in special case like this one, I’d like to spend it totally alone. 
I enjoy solitude and empty seat beside me. Perfect.

Comitted to You

So i guess, on my birthday in the end of this month I'll spend time differently than before :)