Fight for the Future*

Buat kamu: semangat menjalani pendidikan, jaga kesehatan, jangan terlalu banyak mikir di luar kerjaanmu sekarang, fokus, dan jangan lupa ibadah dan doanya..
Buat saya: semangat riset lalu TA, juga jangan terlalu banyak mikirin kamu yang di sana..oh jaga kesehatan juga ding. dan jangan males-males makan..


Bener, akan ada waktunya nanti kita ga ngoyo ngadepin hidup, ada waktunya kita bisa seneng-seneng. Tapi buat sekarang harus mau susah dulu, harus fight for the future*. 


Yuk sama-sama? Bismillah.




*terinspirasi lagu dengan judul yang sama oleh The Trees and The Wild. Ah, galau mulu nih :p

Silly Tweet

johanasa @TikaWe @misstyzha ngomongin LDR yah? Napa sih repot. Klo udah ribet, putus kan gampang. Cewe jgn malah tlalu nuntut perhatian lbh ya.

#jleb #crot #bleeding :(((

Enak aja Mas Jo ngemeng. Gamau, aku gamau putus! Ngawur ae, putus ko semudah nge-del matkul. Iya kalo masi jaman putih biru. Ini kan udah serius hubungannyaaa.. #jambakjilbab

Cewek nuntut perhatian? Wajar..namanya aja cewek, mana ada yang ga suka diperhatiin...

Tapi, cowok juga cueknya naujubile.. Nahlo!

Lucky Me (and hopefully) Lucky You

''Beruntungnya jadi **** (my bf name), punya calon istri yang imut, minimalis, dan yang paling penting adalah perhatiannya yang luar biasa. Jadi pengen..

Sing kayak kamu ini apa masih available di toko2 terdekat?''

Malam Jumat, di tengah-tengah ngelesi gambar, seorang kawan baik yang juga mengenal partner berkomitmen saya sms seperti itu. Kaget sih, sempet nengok ke luar juga, oh belum ujan belom ada geledek juga kok tiba-tiba sms gitu. Cuma emang sebelumnya saya sempet nanya kabarnya si kawan itu, yang sedang mengalami, yah katakanlah kegalauan akut :))

Tersenyum simpul, sebelum saya akhirnya membalas smsnya secara cermat.

"Sama-sama beruntung. Aku juga ngerasa beruntung dapet orang yang sabarnya luar biasa, bisa jadi sahabat, partner dan imam sekaligus"

Yes it's true. Tanggal 19 lalu tepat setengah tahun kami memutuskan untuk mengambil jalan yang lebih serius, mempersiapkan diri untuk tujuan yang telah kami sepakati bersama sebelumnya; pernikahan. Sejak saat memutuskan berkomitmen (yea, kami tak terlalu suka menggunakan istilah 'pacaran'), saya belum pernah sekalipun melewatkan diri tanpa bersyukur karena Tuhan begitu baiknya menghadirkan dia di sisi saya, mudah-mudahan sepanjang usia saya.


Sabarnya dia, adalah salah satu hal yang membuat saya jatuh cinta, berulang kali setiap hari. Kebaikannya, penerimaannya akan saya, apa adanya membuat saya kadang terbangun dengan perasaan khawatir. Is it just a dream? It's too good to be true.


Saya suka marah-marah, suka gak sabar, suka cemburuan. Apalagi kl lagi period, aduh sensinya bisa ampun-ampunan. Kadang takut suatu saat dia akan pergi karena tidak tahan dengan semua itu. Cause in fact, kalau ngadepin orang seperti saya, mungkin saya sendiri juga ga tahan. Tapi herannya dia tahan-tahan aja selama ini. Kenapa ya? Heh kamu, ko bisa tahan kenapa? Jawab :)


Terkadang mucul keraguan, ketakutan, dan saya akan menanyakan lagi dan lagi tentang perasaannya. Dan selalu, ia akan menjawab seperti memberitahu anak kecil yang menanyakan hal yang sama berulang kali untuk sesuatu yang jawabnnya sudah pasti; dengan nada tidak percaya kadang bercampur kesal yang selalu ingin saya dengar.


Semoga memang sampai akhir nanti, kami tetap bisa saling mensyukuri keberuntungan kami saling memiliki satu sama lain ;')


Dan doa saya selalu; jika memang jodoh maka dekatkanlah kami dengan cara yang baik, Tuhan :)
Amin.

LDR

Orang bilang, sejauh kita punya komitmen, maka LDR bukan masalah besar. Saya pernah percaya itu, dulu, sebelum saya mengalaminya sendiri. Masalah terbesar bukan pada percaya, karena kami sudah saling percaya. Apalagi soal ketakutan akan perselingkuhan. Oh wow. Saya sih yakin kalau orang sudah nggak puas, jauh dekat pada akhirnya akan selingkuh juga.



Masalah terbesar adalah kangen. Sounds pity, eh? Iya, saya juga ngerasa bodoh kok.


Berpikir bahwa semua baik-baik saja, apalagi setiap hari selalu sama-sama sibuk, tapi kenapa bantal selalu basah di malam hari? Mendengar suaranya saja sudah menimbulkan genangan hangat di ujung mata. Ampun, padahal baru 2 minggu. Memang telpon dan ketemu langsung itu jauh bedanya. Biasanya hanya dengan express lunch saja sudah bisa jadi moodbooster berhari-hari. Kalau sekarang? A regular late night call aja belum tentu bisa. Padahal tiap hari tuh telponnya. Mau sampai kapan kayak gini?


Kedengarannya kok egois banget. Padahal saya 100% sadar ini juga buat masa depan kami. Saya juga yakin pada akhirnya kami akan bisa melewati ini, bicara soal Tuhan yang tidak akan memberi cobaan melewati batas kemampuan hambaNya. Tapi tetap saja... berat.


Saya bahkan nyaris lupa wajahnya kalau tidak diingatkan dengan wallpaper handphone. Wajah yang tersenyum cerah bersama keluarga...

Blue Mustard

 

Ah how I love doodling :')

Skirty Skirt

I am planning to wear skirt more often since now! But still, I only have a few of them in my wardrobe..

Anyway, make a skirt by our own sounds fun, eh? I'm thinking about the design..

Designing skirt is really a fun! See if I am going to realize it :)

Self Branding

Made it more than a year ago but haven't got a chance to publish it. 

Now it's the time, finally! 

Why I choose lips? It's because I'm fussy hihi.. in a good way I hope. 

Not red nor pink but magenta, which symbolize energetic, young and witty :)

So.. what do you think? :)

Cermin

Entrepreneur, technopreneur, segala sesuatu soal wiraswasta itu seolah menjadi tren abad ini. Di kampus saya yang notabene adalah kampus teknik pun tak urung ikut menggalakkan program kewirausahaannya, bagi mahasiswanya tentu. kalau buat dosen kayaknya enggak, mereka sudah terbiasa proyekan tanpa diajari kok #eh :)

Saya termasuk yang ikut melirik. Sebenarnya sudah lama saya bercita-cita jadi pengusaha tapi tidak pernah terpikirkan untuk melakukannya di saat semester akhir seperti ini. Semester awal dulu? Malangnya saya belum tergerak. Menjadi seorang entrepreneur semasa mahasiswa memang tidak mudah. Tak cuma sekedar melaksanakan kegiatan sebulan dua bulan, tapi perlu keistiqomahan kalau memang diniatkan menjadi bisnis yang terus berkembang, bukan sekedar agar medali emas Pimnas di tangan, kalau ide bisnisnya lewat PKM tentu saja. Perlu effort, motivasi dan kecintaan luar biasa. Sialnya salah satunya saya tidak punya, paling tidak saat ini. Effort, ya effort.

Lagu lama soal menejemen waktu. padahal saya tidak sibuk-sibuk amat. Fakta bahwa junior, senior dan juga kawan seumuran saya sudah banyak yang berbisnis sedangkan saya baru bisa memulai pelan-pelan ternyata mengganggu juga. Saya jadi merasa terintimadasi dan tentu kepengen seperti mereka yang telah lebih dahulu sukses.

Tapi dialog suatu malam dengan kawan berkomitmen saya membuka perspektif lain.

Kawan berkomitmen saya ini, sebut saja Abi ini menceritakan tentang kawan berorganisasinya semasa mahasiswa yang sukses berwirausaha. Kawannya itu sudah memiliki dua cabang bimbel di Surabaya dan akan membuka dua juga di Kertosono juga, kalau saya tidak salah ingat. Gampangnya saja, dalam usia kurang dari dua lima, money already works for him. Salut? Pasti. Iri? Bisa jadi.

Abi sendiri selepas berkuliah memilih untukmengejar cita-citanya sejak lama, bekerja di salah satu perusahaan multinasional. Ya, sebagai pegawai yang mungkin bagi sebagian orang berpikir; memang jaman ya masih jadi pegawai sekarang? Namun Abi, melihatnya dengan perspektif lain.

Terinspirasi dari kawannya, Abi berkata bahwa intinya yang kita cari dalam hidup ini adalah kebahagiaan. Apakah mau jadi pegawai, jadi entrepreneur, yang penting adalah kita suka dan menjalankannya sepenuh hati. Kawan Abi bisa jadi memang menikmati menjadi seorang pengusaha, karena itu ia sukses. Sedangkan Abi, bisa jadi tak terlalu menikmati pressure menjadi pengusaha saat ini. Saya? Saya jadi ingin menjadi pengusaha besar nantinya, tapi saya tidak mau terlalu ngoyo sekarang saat masih banyak yang ingin saya kejar, dan bukan di bidang bisnis.

Jadi apa sih intinya? Ya cerminan aja buat diri kita sendiri. Sesederhana itu, lakukan apa yang kita suka, jangan pedulikan pandangan orang lain.

"Do something cause you love it not because you looked good doing it "

Alanda Kariza

May Update!

1.Had just attended the wedding of my sister’s friend. Sounds fun, eh? We didn’t know his sister personally but had been invited to her wedding. So what happened there was, instead of taking pictures of the bride and the groom we took ourselves hihi..

Bhangga, a friend of us. Yes, you guessed right! The wedding was using Java tradition so he dressed up like that :)

Ah and my bf accompany us as a driver hihi.. The wedding was located away from our home so the girls asked me whether my bf can drive for us. “You know if we use motorcycle the make up won't last!!’’ they cried. Haha okay baby.. XD

PS: the girls looked like that high cause they were using high heel! I need to confirm this cause I bothered with the fact they looked higher than me in the pictures ;p


2. Finished my first round in English course. I got 87,5 % of final result. Not bad.. But I’m not satisfied with my listening and grammar assessment. Not surprising actually tsk tsk.. need to study harder right after it.

3. Also finished Bilangan Fu by Ayu Utami. Haha..I know I know it is so last year, eh? But I just haven’t read it yet.. Everytime I see this book in any bookstore I always think that this book will last long so I will buy it in the next visit. That things go on and on. Until I found C2O, a magnificent public library which fulfills your needs with all that high taste book haha.. I can’t believe I use that word. I was already had Catatan Pinggir 4 by Goenawan Muhammada in my hand when I accidentally spotted the Bilangan Fu. So this book finally beats me! I took it home and finished in two days.

To be honest, I have been worship Ayu Utami since a long time. I read Saman when I was in Junior High School, which surprised my teacher a lot. I enjoy her following book, Larung which made me cried a lot in the end. I also read the Parasit Lajang and now I enjoy Bilangan Fu as much as her other books. I might not a good book reviewer and I am not tend to review it as it should be, formally, but let me say something about this book, and lil bit about Ayu in my eyes *woohooo*.

I never enjoy other Indonesian books like Ayu’s. Her writing style use a metaphor, scientific, poetic all in right amount which made the words light and a very well read. And very beautiful. Or like Ignas Kleden said, in the best parts her words shine as crystal.

For some people her writing is too bold. I admit it. She write about politics and culture, environment, human beings and spirituality. But in other hand she also write about sexuality, even it is not the biggest part of it. I can say that she broke the line. Line that we as Eastern made about what girls should do or not do. Simply like she said if man dates many girls why people amazed at him like he is hero but why if girl do the some people called him a bitch? Which is good for me at least in some part. Her way of writing later inspired other woman author to write in that woman freedom-ish literature genre called sastra wangi.

Well back to Bilangan Fu. It has Ayu’s style. I found many similarity with Larung. Politics, religion, social issue. Personality of the main character. The plot. And the surprising ending and teary which I love the most. All I can say is yes you should read it. Or at least you should read one f Ayu’s book before you die. It doesn’t mean you should agree with her way of thinking, but take it as appreciation for one of Indonesian most influenced author :)


Well, that's all! Anyway I’ve told you that I took the French course too. It’s nice I’m now in Debutant B (up one level). But I felt lack of motivation every time goes to French course..  Poor me, it is not not about the language it’s about the teacher ..*sigh* Wish I can kick the personal thingy and only gain the knowledge ya.. Hopefully? :)

See you soon people! A bientot! Much kisses!

xxxxxx

Another Girls Hangout

Having so much fun with girls! Hang out to Pasar Malem Tjap Tunjungan, a Traditional Food Festival in Tunjungan Plaza..

Widya and icha, the one who eat takoyaki :3

Krauss..kraus.. Rest in peace, sate kerang -me

The real cireng from Bandung! The first time for me. Yummy!

Girlfriend+Mall+Good Food= Super happy!!

Be Motivated!

I decided to blog regularly but still i find it quite hard to push myself to go online. Yes, since my laptop has been broken, i use PC. And yes, turn on PC ask more energy than turn on laptop cause it means I need to move my lazy ass from bed
But then I found this via blog of @ijotoska! Laptop or PC, this is the one which can push me blogging even for single day! Tee hee..

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3— Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror


Brilliant isn’t it? So start from tomorrow I’ll write from Day 1. Wish me luck guys!!

Not a Very Good Thing to Begin May

Hello mid-day, people... Well, not ordinary time to blog, at least for me. But there was something happened that I should blog as soon as possible, or I will explode :(

Okay, I start it by admitting that I’m mess. I’m become a moron, especially nowadays. You ask me why?

Last April 29th was my mom’s birthday. I have just remembered about that when my lil sister called me. This morning. 

Between our silly chat suddenly she asked me why I didn’t wish my mom a happy birthday. I just... felt like slapped in the face. Like, oh my God, what’s the date? I totally forget about it. How come, I don’t know... :(

It’s not over yet.  In the silence after the question, soon I realized that yesterday was hers too. My sister still in 3th grade of elementary school but she already has those maturity manner. I mean she didn’t yell at me about why I didn’t say anything to her yesterday. But she mad at me because I said nothing to my mom. Yes, that 9 year old kid. Now you ask who is older...

I don’t know how to say it clearly. I feel bad, really bad. I amfeel embarrassed to myself for being such ignorant and egoistic. What I’ve been doing so I forget my own family’s birthday? Am I that busy? Ha ha. :’(



Mom, I’m really sorry. I’m very sorry mom. What should I do? Even sorry doesn’t make a sense, to be honest :’(
And for Little Ocupa..Oh dear.. :’(