Ouch

"Cinta itu cuma ilusi belaka.

Kita selalu mencari suatu tempat untuk jatuh dan selalu mencari orang yang menarik*"

*Translated: "Love is just an illusion. We're always looking for a place to fall in and always find the attractive one"


That is my favourites quote from BiBi, a Korean comic serial wrote by Choi Kyung-ah, volume 2. The male main character Han Je Hoo said a thing when the main female character Lee Na Bie reveal her disbelief about love at the first sight.

The first time I read it, it’s like a slap in the face. Yes, people do believe about love at the first sight. But I agree with Je Hoo, there’s no such a thing in love. Things we called love at the first sight is just a kinda attracted feeling. You see a charming man, beautiful ladies, who won’t feel attracted?  If you let it go, it will go. But if you keep it, it should be a true love someday.

I don’t know what makes me write about it. It might because i’m currently umm..dating? Well not that far, just said I have someone who texting me everyday, remembering about lunch, say sweet things about me, out together in a special occasion, yeah you get it all. I was wondering if he in love with me and plan to reveal it soon haha.. 

Anyway the point is, I’m scared. I am scared that he just see the illusion of me, the attractive side of me, and of course I don’t want that happen.. I’m trying to make him see the whole side of me. I have no idea if he already saw it or not.. But sometimes I feel like he appreciate me too much..Like I’m all okay, get it? Is it because he hasn’t see the not-very-good side of me? Or he already see it but he found that it works for him? I hope for the second option.. Despite of it, it is true that at least we should have something we hate in someone even we’re in love with him/her, isn’t? So why till now I feel that everything I do, even the yucky one, is so acceptable on him? :(

But anywaaaayyy, it could be only a mind trick. Say it, I could be just misunderstood about his feeling to me hihi.. Is that so, I wouldn’t bother about these things hahaha..

Have a very cool Thursday people! :) I'll write soon!