Finally, Breathe

Hello peeps! How are things going? Alhamdulillah finally I'm done with my last formal responsibility to my parents.. I have just finished my Final Project and now I am waiting for the mark to come out! Well, that makes me still not officially graduate...but it's a start my friend, it's a good start...
Afterall I am already feeling so free! After months of struggling here's the time to release the breath!

get up everyday with no worries is such a gift hehehe..

So this is make it official too to start blogging again! Well, hear from me for the next few days about my Final Project report... or something different! Catch up you all very soon, fellas!


xoxoxoxo

My March is Full of ♥

People tends to think February is the month of love. I used to. So you see it's like getting a surprise gift when I found out that March, is the one which was full of love ♥.

I never really pay attention to March and for years this month was just went by. But not this year, despite the engagement day that I had shared before, I was glad to share the other two events that almost as lovely as the first one I've mentioned :)

1. Friend's Graduation

I know I know I should be ashamed of it... Attending my colleagues graduation twice and I still haven't graduated yet? Ha!! But actually that was what happened.. I was feeling like wearing a thick glass over my face and try to think that no one of my junior will noticed me.. and asking 'when will you graduate, Sista?' ( I wasn't granted. ALL of them asked me the same question. But, thank's God, they were pray for me also. Relieve.)

the decoration reminds me to the jellyfish in Spongebob series :>

Next is my turn! For sure!!

2. Say it with Flower; cliché but works :)
My man wasn't born with romantic genes. But that doesn't mean he doesn't learning. Here is the proof:

Last 17th I was so mad at him sincee morning because my postcard (which should be already sent to his leasing house) wasn't come yet and he insanely stupidly forgot to check it in the post office when we both now that was his last day in Bogor (he would move to another city for his work). I was so sad because that was the first time I made a postcard to him, with all my love (I am not overrated!), and he simply treated it like I sent him postcard every single day. What a moron.

In the afternoon I planned to hangout with my partner-in-crime Dila. The weather was so bad that time, we got a gale and Dila was trapped out there when I was waiting in worry in The Library. My man called me once to inform that he was on his way moving, but I didn't give a damn about it. My mood become worse when he hung the phone in a second after knowing my current condition. I was hoping he called to pursue me forgive him...

But the wind blown in different direction when Dila came with holding a huge rose bouquet in her hand. At first I was so surprised and for a second I think it was from her. But when she said it was from my man, you know where all the mad was gone :D

So here the story was... Right after called me, my man called Dila, asked her to buy flowers in his name (that was one of the reason why Dila came late). At first he wanted to buy me my favourite flower ever, the sunflower! But poor Dila, she couldn't bring the approximately 1,5 meters in tall sunflower in pot hehe..(she ride motorcycle, by the way). So my man changed the plan. He asked Dila to buy 19 stalks of bloody red rose and arranged it into beautiful rose bouquet :)

Why 19? Because it was our anniversary date hehe..

The most beautiful flower I've got this year :)

The flowers changed my mood instantly. I kept hugging and sniffing for the rest of the day... and week. I put it in the water until it started withered then cut some pieces and try to make dried flower :)

So, all in all thanks for MasnyaMisstyzha... Even sometimes you can be such a pain in the ass, but thank you for always trying to win my heart back (not to mention that you always succeed :p). I love you, always :)

And of course thanks for Dila who were helping made this things happened! Aww... thank you berry much, dear! I manage to pay you in return! :p

You see now why my March is full of love! How about you? Did March treat you as well as I am? :)

So Gimme More News!

Today is Monday so it's time to post about dreams! :)

I've been crazy about writing since I don't remember. Very young, exactly. The clearest moment relate to this interest is when I was in second grade of elementary school. I had a tonsil surgery that time and as recovery-gift, I asked my mom to buy me a diary. I don't remember where the idea came from :)

Right after the doctor let me out, we drove forward to nearest stationary store and I choose the cutest diary in that place; a hardcover one with clown picture in the cover. Soon after we arrived at home, I started my first writing. I write about my experience having a tonsil surgery. And since that time, writing is an integral part of my life.

(I still remember how my first diary looked like. The cover, the pinkish sheets... Seem like I am still having it someplace in my house.. Oh what memories :p)

In the other hand, my parents never realize that their oldest children have a big tendency in writing, neither do I. I always love Bahasa lesson. I did my writing task wholeheartedly, even my friends were freak out about that. But nothing really happened until I was in 6th grade and my Bahasa lecturer, Ms. Lilik, a very keen and dynamic teacher, encourage us to participate in writing essay competition which held by one of private tv channel, SCTV. I remember writing two full page-folio about my dreams, the craziest one, like having trip across the universe, visiting planets and so on. ( I forgot most of the details, sorry )

That was my first time participating in such competition so it was not surprising after sending the essay, that thing flew out off my mind quickly. But then you see how puzzled I was when weeks (or months?) after that, in the middle of holiday, Ms. Lilik called me. Sounded so crazy that time, she told me I win the competition. The first place.

In a nutshell, Ms Lilik had found my talent and after that shocking-but-happy moment she did a lot of help of letting me know every writing competition that were held. I win almost all competition, most as a first winner. PORSENI, then a writing essay that held by Total Indonesie, were a few. The rest was history.

As I grew up, I develop my writing skills into more literature-ish. I started writing short story, poem... and win several too. But when I started my day as uni student, I flipped.

Now that I become an art student in technology institute, I found it was hard to find a literature-ish atmosphere. But thanks God, at least I still can find my media to write. I become a a journalistic crew of ITS Online since I was freshman. The main responsibility of it was filling articles in www.its.ac.id. This is what I called flipped! After long time working with sort of poems now I must write news articles! Ha! What a different world!

But soon I enjoyed my work there and learn quickly  to write news. I also got a chance to do part time in local newspaper as a part of training.Then, hat happened next was surprising. Almost 4 years working there made myself clear about what I want to do in the future. You can guess what? Yes, become a journalist :)

an English-based-writing newspaper in Indonesia

My first crush is Media Indonesia. To be honest I don't really care about what they write there but after seeing the layout of the newspaper, I felt in love (seems I couldn't diminish my art sense even in this sorta things..). Some MI crews also had visited my campus couple years ago for sort of roadshow and I was amazed with how dynamic their crews are. So young and full spirited.

I also used taking Kompas as consideration. They never be in my first place since their style of writing is a way bit serious for me. But sure, I am head over heels withe their Sunday edition. The Samuel Mulia's column and all those fashion pages is just... coolness.

But then I met this English-based-writing newspaper, The Jakarta Post. They aren't really new for me since my uncle is working there as a jornalist too. But I never really pay attention to them until the time when I trapped in boring time of waiting in my uni language center and all I had there was tons of The Jakarta Post they have subscribed. Well, now finally  I know where I exactly want  to go! :)

I have did a bit research and they usually do recruitment around November. The requirements for applicants were quite general; 550 TOEFL score... must include our writing example in article...and on. I also got news several weeks ago that my senior in high school is having trainee as reporter there. I guess I'll pick some tips from her :)

Oh and it may sound a bit out of topic but do you know Anchor Woman or News no Onna? It is a famous Japan tv series back then in 90's. Go browsing for it cause I don't have much time to explain about it :p
It was a really good tv series. I first watched it when I was in junior high school, and  it still become my favorite after years. I learn a lot from it, and I think the story of the series was influenced me to working in a news field (the story was about a news tv anchor life, with all those intrigues).

So that's all the sharing of dreams for today, peeps! Happy facing weekdays! Ciao x

2nd Sneak Peek of Final Project

Like I have promised! Comments are welcome :)

tons of papers that still need to be detailed and finished. Painful, I must admit :p

For you who haven't heard it yet, I am going to make a children book for my Final Project. What children book? I'll tell you in the end ;p
I suppose it is the last sneak peek that I'd show you guyyss... Too much teasers are not good, yes?
The pictures you have seen above are still half finished; still need to be detailed before going to digital retouching phase. I'll keep the best for the last ;p

I'll see you soon, cupcakes! Hugggssss!!



PS: By the way, I post it in Monday, which if you remember, is my day-dedicated-for-writing-about-dreams. In case you're asking, I tell you that finishing this Final Project is one of my biggest dream this year heheh... Just in case, friend :p 

Final Project Sneak-Peek

 I don't know if it is too late or not...just take a look :p

lotsa lotsa papers

...but I still have time to dress up... ONLY SOMETIMES!

half-finished sketch

 Let us see if I can make it on time! Wish me all the best, people!

Confession

Guys, I'm using Bahasa :)


*Warning: akan menjadi postingan yang panjang...hang on! :))*


Ini adalah draft kedua postingan saya sejak yang pertama tetap teronggok di kotak draft. Versi postingan yang kurang lebih sama, hanya dalam bahasa Inggris yang belakangan kerasa agak kurang lepas (terima kasih pada kemampuan English saya yang kurang. Nulis dalam bahasa Inggris agar bisa sehalus nulis dalam bahasa Indonesia masih jadi PR buat saya)


Simpel aja sebenernya, saya mau cerita soal sidang kedua saya yang diadakan kemarin. Karena ada kejadian yan epic banget dan temen-temen jadi pada nanya-nanya sampe saya bosen jawabnya. Jadi saya tulis aja di sini biar paham semua... saran dari @checalories juga sih .. Jadi beginilah ceritanya, silaken disimak B-)


Saya sidang mulai telat banget. Seharusnya mulai jam 3 siang baru nyaris setengah 6 mulai. Padahal, saya udah nongol di kampus dari jam setengah 2. Jadi, bayangin aja betapa itu bikin saya bete. Udah nggak tidur, nggak segera sidang, kan tambah capek gitu kan ya bo..


Singkatnya, saya lantas mulai sidang dan semuanya lancar-lancar aja, nggak di sela di tengah dan yah sampe bab 4 lancar smualah. Trus mulai masuk bab 5 yang merupakan implementasi desain. Nah itu saya belum kelar tuh bikinnya. Jadi ceritanya saya bikin buku kumpulan cerita rakyat yang ada tambahan pop-upnya. Dari 50 halaman, saya baru sanggup ngerjakan skitar 16 halaman. Itupun masih raw banget pewarnaannya. Yaudah deh pas sesi dosen ngeritik kena deh saya.


Saya sih terima-terima aja masalahnya itu gambar emang blom selese. Saya sendiri ngakuin, dosbing saya sendiri sebelum sidang udah bilang ini masih mentah. Jadi pas penguji ngomongin hal yang sama saya lempeng aja, lha wong emang blom selesai. Detailnya belum keliatan banget. Jujur emang saya masih ngejar kuantitas timbang kualitas. Nah pas di tengah-tengah sesi peguji ngasi kritik saran masukan itu mata saya tiba-tiba berair. Rasanya emang ngantuk, capek mulai keluar, mata mulai pedes. Saya cubit-cubit tuh kaki saya biar air matanya nggak tambah banyak. Eh makin lama kok jadi aneh, malah ada feeling pengen nangis. sampe akhirnya dosbing ngguyoni ''jangan nangis ta..". Dikirain saya mbrebes mili gara-gara dikritik kali ya, padahal bukan. Tapi habis dibilang gitu saya malah nangis beneran dong :/


Sumpah dosen-dosen bingung, apalagi saya. Maksudnya pikiran kayak, "cruut... ngapain nih gue nangis? Ah gila pas sidang kok nangis! Ini kenapa kok pake acara nangiss??" Hal-hal kayak gitu udah banjir aja di otak. Bapak ibu dosen masih terus ngasi masukan tapi suaranya jadi makin melunak huahaha...positif nih dikira nangis gara-gara dikritik. Akhirnya sambil berurai airmata saya minta maaf, saya bilang gatau juga kok bisa nangis... ga maksud nangis... maksud saya, helooo, saya gamau dicap mahasiswa cengeng yang ga kuat nerima kritikan dosen lho ya! Trus tone suara dosen jadi normal lagi dan nangis saya mulai jadi bahan ledekan... Mulai dari dosbing yang bilang saya kayak Timun Mas banget, lembut hatinya pake nangis gitu... (iya saya juga ga ngerti maksudnya dosbing saya apa), trus serta merta menunjuk salah satu penguji sebagai Buto Ijo (emang bapak penguji itu cenderung dianggap killer hihi..), trus nyebut nangis saya itu mungkin emosi bawah sadar... Trus dosen penguji yang disebut Buto Ijo malah nyodor-nyodorin tempat tisu ke saya sambil guyon nih nih ambil semua... Cuma ada satu penguji yang dengan suara tenang bilang satu kalimat yang simpel; 'mungkin kamu capek'.


Saya nggak tahu apakah statemen beliau ada hubungannya dengan fakta bahwa beliau tahu saya baru sidang pertama alias K1 sebulan yang lalu. Pas kejadian saya emang ga ngeh kenapa saya bisa nangis, tapi kayaknya sekarang saya mulai ngerti. Semalam waktu nge-twit soal acara nangis di tengah K2, temen saya dengan akun @snowkie bilang nangis pas sidang ga papa, itu mungkin luapan emosi... Semua itu membuat saya berpikir... bukan bermaksud making excuses, nyari-nyari alesan. Tapi mencoba menelusuri aja kenapa saya sampai bisa meler dan bermata merah di tengah-tengah sidang.


Iya, saya capek. Lelah sekali. Luapan emosi yang tak tertahankan? Kayaknya bisa juga. Pastinya ini akumulasi.


Sidang pertama alias K1 saya dilangsungkan sebulan lalu saat hampir semua teman saya melangsungkan sidangnya semester lalu. Karena itu saya punya waktu praktis hanya sebulan untuk menggarap progres K2. Sialnya, dosen pembimbing saya baru kelar S2 jadi dua minggu pertama beliau masih di Bandung. Begitu pulang, langsung sibuk dengan workshop dan lain-lain hingga saya baru bisa asistensi untuk pertama kalinya dua minggu sebelum sidang. Masukannya banyak dan konsep saya dikaji ulang karena ada tambahan masukan dari beliau tersebut. Kalau mau ditambahin, kelar K1 saya sakit juga hampir dua minggu gabisa makan jadi badan lemes, gabisa nggarap... Nah kalau yang ini kayaknya saya mulai making excuses. Lewatin! Lanjutt...


Singkatnya lagi, dua minggu itu bener-bener full mulai brainstorming ulang konsep. Dua minggu untuk mikir tetek bengek urusan Timun Mas, Ajisaka, Si Bungsu Katak, ilustrasi, gaya gambar, jangan sebut pop-upnya... Konsepnya udah makan dua hari sendiri. Belum mikir layout, sketching yang nauzubillah banyak dan detail, mewarnain bla-bla... Supaya nggak hiperbola cukup saya bilang, I feel the pain. Semua capeknya bangun subuh langsung ngadep meja nggambar... full kayak gitu selama dua minggu. Pernah ngerasain jam 7 malem mata udah pedes saking capeknya. Tidur awal, bangun jam 12, bangun sampe pagi... tidur di ruang tamu biar nggak kegoda kasur. Sampe puncaknya, malam sebelum sidang bahu kanan saya sakit banget. Sebelum-sebelumnya emang sering pegel tapi saya biarkan. Nah malam itu puncaknya. Bahkan buat ngangkat tangan sesiku aja nggak bisa saking sakitnya. Akhirnya saya dengan bahu yang dilumuri minyak tawon, dibalut pake sarung guling (gatau saya hopeless, maksudnya mau bikin semacam gendongan buat tangan), cuma bisa berbaring di kasur mengistirahatkan bahu. Capek, ngantuk, tapi bener-bener nggak mau mejamin mata karena takut ketiduran. Untungnya terus agak baikan sedikit jadi bisa saya pakai lagi tangan kanan saya. Kalau sakit berhenti... mendingan mulai lagi... begitu terus sampai pagi. Pada akhirnya semua terbayar. Makalah kelar pada waktunya, slide selesai, dan soal output saya sudah jungkir balik dalam dua minggu ini, jadi saya sih ga terlalu stres. Yang penting saya udah usaha, itu pointnya.


Namun ketika sidang, pas sesi kritik, saran tanya jawab itu mungkin adalah limitnya. Efek tidur sejam semalam, kurang tidur dua minggu full, bahu yang masih sakit, semuanya mencapai batasnya saat itu. Ini bukan soal penguji yang killer. Bukan soal takut nggak lulus, tidak sepenuhnya... Ya, bener, ini masalah emosi yang tidak tertahankan, yang pas kebetulan jebol pada saat yang tidak tepat.


Saya capek. Alam bawah sadar saya pengen nangis biar lega. Walaupun otak saya udah njerit-njerit 'woyyy lu lagi sidang woyy...' tapi gimana juga emosi mengalahkan logika. Sesimpel itu.


Dan apakah ketika emosi mengalahkan logika akan banyak ruginya seperti kata Cinta di AADC*? Yang jelas sekarang saya ketakutan kalau cerita itu nyebar di antara dosen. Kalau temen-temen sendiri sih gapapa. Maksud saya, helooo, sudah kerudung saru, ngebet kawin, sekarang ketambahan self branding mewek pas sidang kayaknya ga buruk-buruk amat... Tapi kalau dosen lain sampai tahu...bukan apa. Saya sih ga masalah sebenernya kalo sekedar diledekin. Tetapi saya gamau beliau-beliau tersebut salah konsep, dikira saya nangis karena ga tahan dikritik dosen penguji atau semacam itulah. Habis itu pas sidang berikutnya jadi males nih nyidangnya, takut-takut kalau saya nangis lagi...duh saya ikutan males kan kalo kejadian kayak gitu... 


Beberapa teman juga awalnya mengira begitu. Itu wajar, siapa yang tau kalau masalahnya sekompleks itu kalau saya nggak menjlentrehkan dari awal kan? Tapi saya ga mungkin preskon ke tiap orang. Itulah alasan saya nulis postingan ini... Ini bukan soal saya ga siap dikritik, atau penguji yang killer. Wah kasian bapaknya udah terlalu lama mengemban stigma dosen killer pake acara disalah-salahin bikin saya nangis pula... kasihan kan? Hihi... nggak fair...


Oya, saya sempat bilang pengen pulang kalau K2 saya lulus. Dosen penguji udah tanda tangan BAP, apakah artinya saya boleh lanjut? Insya Allah ya, sejauh saya bisa tetep mengejar. Minggu depan mungkin saya pulang. 


Di sisi lain ada sedikit cerita emosional tentang kepulangan saya nanti ke rumah, ke tanah Kalimantan. Beberapa hari yang lalu dalam kondisi emosi tidak sehat dan lelah fisik saya bilang ke ibu kalau K2 lulus saya pengen pulang. Cuma sebentar tiga harian. Alesannya sih ngurus perpanjangan SIM tapi saya juga bilang gatau kenapa saya pengen pulang.


Sejak berkuliah empat tahun yang lalu, saya tidak pernanh pulang kecuali Lebaran atau liburan semester. Libur beberapa hari atau ada tiket murah tidak membuat saya tergiur untuk melepas kangen dengan keluarga di rumah, walaupun banyak sekali teman seperantauan yang melakukan hal tersebut. Pertimbangan saya yang utama faktor biaya. Pulang pergi kalau dapat tiket murah yah 600 keluar paling enggak. Segitu hanya untuk dihabiskan demi beberapa hari demi meredam gejolak emosi kangen saya? Dalam tataran ini menurut saya, cukup sayang. Mending saya tahan kangen sambil menghibur diri bahwa Lebaran atau liburan semester tinggal sebentar lagi sehingga saya bisa agak puas di rumah. Ngenes? Well, saya cuma berusaha untuk tidak manja... Jadi bayangkan betapa ibu saya mulai mencium aroma tak beres saat saya mendadak bilang pengen pulang. 


Semalam, nyaris tengah malam ibu saya menelpon. Rupanya beliau seharian tidak menghubungi saya karena takut mengganggu persiapan sidang saya. Telpon beliau cukup mengagetkan karena ibu bekerja sehingga jam 10 biasanya sudah tidur agar bisa bangun sebelum subuh. Apa yang membuat beliau tinggal begitu larut? Di sana malah sudah pukul satu dini hari... 


Saya tak sempat bertanya, tetapi melihat kasus sebelumnya biasanya kalau saya ada masalah ibu suka tidak bisa tidur sehingga langsung menghubungi saya untuk menanyakan kabar. Semalam, feeling ibu lagi-lagi benar. Banyak yang saya sharingkan. Lalu ada kalimat yang membuat saya sampai menangis lagi. Kata ibu; "Mbak, pulang." Iya Bu, saya pulang... saya butuh menyehatkan pikiran saya sebentar dengan pulang. Kekuatan saya sampai di sini saja, saya mau jadi anak manja sekali ini saja dengan pulang ke rumah di luar Lebaran dan liburan semester. Tidak urus soal biaya yang keluar, saya harus pulang atau saya jadi gila (serem banget yak).


Yah kira-kira begitu.... Wah apakah ini postingan terpanjang yang saya buat? Bisa jadi... Nulisnya sejam sendiri, ngeditnya sejam sendiri... oh waowww... *tepuk tangan*


Di akhir curcol yang berkepanjangan ini saya cuma mau ngucapin TETEP SEMANGAT buat temen-temen yang mau K2... Katanya @mandaoink jangan khawatir K2. Itu kayak asistensi tapi versi banyak dosen, jangan khawatir nggak lulus. Setelah menjalaninya, saya harus bilang iya bener. Santai aja selama udah ngerjakan semaksimal yang kamu bisa... 


Bohong kalau saya bilang nggak pengen banget lulus Maret. Akan tetapi  tidak tepat kalau saya lantas khawatir berlebihan soal itu. Orang tua saya mengajarkan yang penting usahanya. Nah kalau ortu saja bilang gitu, apakah ada yang menghalangi saya untuk tetep berjuang sampai akhir tanpa memikirkan hasil? Tidak ada :)


Tetep semangaaatttt teman-teman!!!! Yang mau sidang yang lagi riset semangaattt... Kerjakan semaksimal mungkin dan mudah-mudahan hasil akan berbanding lurus dengan usaha Anda! :)




xoxoxox




NB: partner saya hobi ngeblog sekarang :) ada tulisannya yang paling bagus sejauh ini yang sangat saya suka...coba klik di sini. Semoga manfaat :)
kalau ada yang mau titip apa gitu dari Kalimantan boleh...tapi uangnya dititipin juga ya? hihi...




*AADC adalah Ada Apa Dengan Cinta. Film yang jadi tonggak kembalinya film remaja di dunia perfilman Indonesia... ceilehh...

The Bar and The Pinkish Stuff

People! Have been quite long, eh? Don't you miss me? ;p Well, here I come with hot updates!

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Just like I have told you, I was busy preparing my first Final Projet bar. And last Thursday I finally got the chance to face that moment! I had been nervous all day long, but alhamdulillah everything  went well... very well :D

Did I look cool? ;p

The bar started late, which I called blessing in disguise. Why? Because the waiting time give me more time to read again all over my materials, scanning my handout and finally time to relax... See, how God helped you in surprisingly way! :)

Even I think I did good, the biggest part which made the bar ended well should went to all supports that my family, bf + his family and of course all my cool friends and everybody gave to me. Remember the wise word, pray is the biggest power on earth. Without all your prayers guys, I was nothing. You are all awesome! Thank you! Thank you!

...anyway it's not the end yet. I'm going to face the next bar few weeks away. But I feel much more confident since I believe all we have to do is just do the best, pray, then God will do the rest! :)

Next... won't talk much about it here since it gave me a heartbreak. But after all, you maybe know that I had worked in sort of office, yeah just say that. I had been believe that I'll be part of them until I graduate from my uni. But, God had His plan, everything changed and soon I found myself left them before I graduate.

A perfect mix of co-workers and family; bound in a same enthusiasm

I hardly visit them since I left cause it gave me a strange feeling; never really sure what it was. But right after all the bar thingy had done, I fulfill my own promise to went there. That time, they were holding open recruitment for new staffs. Papers, discussion, arguments, all covered in kinship atmosphere gave me the nostalgic feeling and soon I was feeling blue.

I never regret my choice to left since it wasn't an overnight thinking. But I always thinking that I hadn't push myself to the limit before I left, that I hadn't been a good leader, and so on... One thing that I am happy about is, they are all in good hand now. My successor will do better than me, I'm sure about that :) *you may call this chapter an atonement... or longing form ;p*

Okay skip the blues! Now, it's time to pinkish stuff!

G O R G E O U S
(image from Google)

I was browsing along through Google when my eyes caught this gorgeous gown. I never familiar with 1920's style until know, but if it's really the example of the dresses of that era, can you kill me now?

I am a big fan of dusty color and this salmon pink gown fits the rules. Don't mention the flower smocks even the fitting, I simply want to die cause this is the wedding gown of my dream!! I am wondering is it will be as gorgeous in ivory...

I'll see you in no time cool people! Kisses!!!

Book Launching, Graduation, and Everything within

Had a very happy and beautiful weekend alhamdulillah... Attending the launching of Kitab Writerpreneur last Sunday with MasnyaMisstyzha (he was spending weekend here! :D). The author, Sofie Beatrix is the wife of Jamil Azzaini. So, we got the free training by JA himself hehe... It was the first time for both of us seeing presentation from JA himself, and soon I found out that the presentation was superb, inspirative yet full of fresh jokes. MasnyaMisstyzha was so thrilled, that's a bonus for me :p

Anyway..I designed the cover for Kitab Writerpreneur. What do you think? ;p

Go grab in nearest bookstores!

Right after that, we were such in a rush went to my department to attended such an 'after party' graduation of my fellas. Ahhh they were looked lovely :3 Congratulation Uut, Widya! Hopefully me, Icha and Resti will soon graduate!!

See the paintings in frame which they bring? That were a graduation gift from us! An illustration of their face n personality hehe..

Uut, the one with songket, was alone since her family left firstly. So, we were sort of babysit her since Uut could be so clumsy and forgetful with her things hihi.. But still, it was fun! Can't wait for my own graduation!!

with Dila :')

And the day was ended with me spending time with MasnyaMisstyzha before took him to train station for going back to Bogor...

Super happy!! :)

Note: pics were taken by me, MasnyaMisstyzha and Resti :)

When Kale Meets Corned

I was too lazy going out to buy any food for iftar. So, instead of buying single meal everyday, I went to supermarket and bought some groceries for.. I don't know, a week stockpile maybe :p

Those were simple dishes you should try cause they were yummy and effortless. I made my signature dish Tumis Kangkung as an appetizer. What is kangkung in English?*searching via Google translate* Oh they said it was kale.. So tumis kangkung means Kale Sauteed... Okay then... how to make it? First thing you should do is chopping the kitchen herbs like onions, garlics and chilies. The amount stands on your own flavor. Then you saute them till it spread the good smell before add the seasoning such as salt, sugar and oyster sauce. Last, add the chopped kale and tomatoes. Done.

I was big fan of Fried Tempe. And what makes better is making this dish is such damn easy. Marinate the tempe with garlic and salt or add pepper if you like more spicy taste. Let it stand for some minutes before fry it. Wait until it turns into brownish gold then remove from pan.

The last is my own try recipe. I name it Spicy Corned Ball. All you need is flour, onion leaves, egg, and water. Chop the herbs then mix it with others while add some salt and sauce. After it well mixed, add a chopped corned beef. Corned beef is what I have in my refrigerator, but I tried to put a nugget too and it works as well. So I think whatever it is as long as it  meat-based will works. After that, all you need is just fry them, piece a piece. Just like when you fry a fried bananas. Just remember, don't fry too long or it will burn but don't too hasty either or it will raw inside. Wait until it turns brownish, yes?


The rest what you need to do is enjoy them together with have-just-cooked rice. Such a good deal for your empty-tummy after fasting all day :)


So what do you think? I'm not pretending like I am a master chef or what cause I'm not. But I try to cook as much as possible even it started with simple dishes. I believe cooking is essential, especially for woman. We need to cook a good meal so our future husband (and child) bear at home *look who's talking :p* Anyway that's what my mom has done. Even she is working nine hours a day, she never left any single day to cook for her family. Not to mention her cooks are fabulous :)


I'll see you around!


PS: Tell me if you found any crack in grammar. I'm in a hurry (my looking-at-monitor-time is catching the limit) so I don't pay attention too much with the grammar thingy. Oh, I'm waiting the time when I can speak and writing like a native!


I have tuna in my freezer.. still thinking what experiment I'd make with this thing :)
Oh yeah, beside being a main course, the Spicy Corned Ball can be a snack. All you need is just eat it with mayonnaise. Ummm...yummy :9 Feels like eat western dish haha... 

For the Promise Sake: ICCI 2011

Another self browsing old photos and suddenly remembered that I have been owed you to post the 'serious' post about ICCI 2011 *see the fun version post here Whoaaa... It has been ages yaa... Pardon mee.. *how cliche*. Anyway... but better late than never eh? Enjoy some of the snapshots :)

We provide something like a hall of fame wall for the participant (and us) to take a pictures :D

Me with Toya in the registration desk where we worked :D

I didn't take many pictures during the event, I was too busy deal with the computer, LCD speaker and so on.  All I can say is that was an uber cool event and definitely an amazing experience for me personally. I have been looking forward to ICCI 2012 or 2013 :) You guys who are interested in art, social, design and architecture field should come and join us next! And if you excited to know how the event was going, feel free to check on an article that I wrote for my university website. Just click on this link!


I'll see you in no time people! x


PS: the copyright of the last two photos are go to Product Design Industry ITS

R.i.s.e.t

Assalamualaikum! Hey there people! Gonna use my mother language again..

Gatau kenapa akhir-akhir ini makin galau aja. Makin galau maka semakin sering bahasa Indonesia digunakan hihi...Yeah, tiga hari yang lalu udah masuk bulan Juni. Actually saya ga terlalu expect too much dari bulan ini soalnya bukan bulan favorit saya banget. Tapi berhubung kata MasnyaMisstyzha saya jangan sampai mind blocking jadi resmilah saya menaruh harapan besar pada bulan ini! #backsoundtepuktangan

Anywaayy..bakal banyak banget hal yang penting terjadi bulan ini. Tepat seminggu lagi alias tanggal 10 Juni saya bakal ngumpulin lapora Riset aka pra-TA. Oh my oh my, don't ask please? Habis ngumpulin itu saya bakal dihadapkan dengan sidang! Yah gatau siapa yang bikin peraturan itu awalnya, tapi di jurusan saya ini sidangnya sampe 4 kali! #muntahmuntah. Nah ajegile kan? Tapi yang bulan Juni ini masih sidang pertama..

Trus pertengahan Juni ini juga MasnyaMisstyzha bakal ultah. Masi bingung mau kasih apa karena ditanyain maunya apa bilangnya "aku pengen sidangmu sukses'' Hyalah abaangg.. itumah bukan gue yang nentuin yaaa.. Doanya minta sama yang di Atas aja klo gitu :)) Tapi tetep ah sweet banget kamuuu :') #endel

Ohya balik lagi ke soal Riset. Nah ini gila banget ngurus pikiran. Tapi jeleknya saya nih ya, sering banget sumpeknya. Nah kalo udah sumpek saya gabisa ngapa-ngapain, mo dipaksa aja gabisa. Akhirnya banyak banget kerjaan yang ga kelar. Haiyahh..
Segala cara sudah ditempuh. Udah makan coklat yang katanya bisa bikin mood bagus, terus jalan-jalan dulu biar fresh baru ngerjain Riset. Eh.. kejadiannya sampe rumah akhirnya malah capek, tidur, terus besok paginya galau lagi.. #nangisdarah

ini salah satu yang bikin puyeng. Nyebarin kuesioner ke SD buat Riset haha..

But anywaayy..tetep mensyukurin apa yang udah didapet sampe sekarang lah ya.. Dan teteup juga terus semangat buat mengejar masa depan hihi..


Goodnight peeps! :)

Healing by Crying

[Healing by Crying]

Adobe Illustrator CS2 sketch work then colored in Adobe Potoshop CS3

When you cry, you heal yourself. I can’t be more agree with this statement. How happy if I can cry and let things out. Ah :)


Anyway this won’t be a melodramatic post hihi..  Actually I’ll get my ‘period’ soon so that may be a good reason to be a lil bit mellow hihi.. *that was my excuse for several days ago. But for now, I’m happy as you all hope, ready to face all the challenge of life, ready to move on, ready for Design Research class!!! Ups, that is the reason I wrote this post :)

Regret always comes late. That’s lame, I know. But why people keep did it? That is mystery. And I did it again, regret about something that I fully realize, and was my entire fault, my full responsibility.
Bad time management, postpone small task, little things that become a big hill of pending tasks. Oh how many times I should have faced it? Am I never learned? Pathetic.

This semester I have Design Research Class which commonly known as pre-Final Project. You do half of your Final Project in Design Research Class. Choosing the subject, do the researches, polls, interview, etc. I won’t babbling much about it cause it will make me sad (again) but simply said if you don’t pass this subject, you won’t get permission to do Final Project next semester. If you don’t do the Final Project next semester you will be late minimum one semester  from your graduating time. See the problem? No?

For some of us, that wasn’t big deal. For me, it’s big problem. No, it’s not about my parent. They taking care of me fairly and as long as I have done the best, everything is ok. But have I try my best? You should know why I feel so ashamed of myself.



In the deepest of my heart I’m afraid. I’m afraid I can’t deal with fail. I don’t hope to, but I know I should prepare for the worse too. I should learn dealing with (naudzubillah) fail.



It’s stupid to ask God to turning back time and regret only makes me feel worse.So I decided to move on, do the best in the rest of the time.

And I should believe that whatever the result is, God will give me the best. And God won’t give me something that cannot be faced by me :)


Bismillah!

Bismillah.. Please pray for me guys!

Next Monday there will be hold DKV 5 City Branding exhibition. My team project for this semester, Bangkalan city branding will be published there. Wish me luck guys, since it was my last studio work, i'm really looking forward to get the best score.

Please hope for the best for me. i'm bit nervous facing that time. Please, please pray for me that everything will going awesome.

Love you guys, see you around soon!Muuuch looove from me!

my batik class portofolio

hey what's up reader? doin your best for the  entire of the day? good, i do so, so let's give some cheers for us! :)

anyway like you all recognize, and i've write it in my profile too, i'm a visual communication design. simply called DKV, in Sepuluh Nopember Institute of Technology. but i rarely found some of my artworks here hiyahaha... maybe some of you assumed that i'm not kinda productive produce any artwork. haha actually it;s not true at all. most of my time spent to make any artwork. yet, any doodles. hmm but honestly i'm kinda lazy posting picture even photo in my blog. right, i'm not kidding! even only retouched or adjust the size is not an exciting idea for me. so that's why some of my post contains text much and less picture huhu..

anyway i think today it's a good start. i'm gonna face new semester next month and well this is new year too so let's making positive change around. for the starting point i plan to post my college task regularly here, in this blog, cause God knows that i'm not so interesting with deviantart-which should be more compatible to post some artwork thingy, ask me why.

and trus me dude, being DKV's student's means lot of fun. lot of creativity, and loottt artworks to post. *teehee.

ehm.

for the last semester i've class named Desain Nusantara. all we do at class is mbatik. we started by making 40x 40 cm batik using kawung patterns. but for the next next projects we were able to make such modern batik pattern. My friend Uut ever wrote about our Desain Nusantara class here. 

i've made shawl with ITS -my uni.- theme. ITS is all about technical and blue. that's why you will see some gear in my shawl. and dont forget the logo of ITS itself.

 

this is the front of the shawl. 

actually i'm trying to take a photo when i was using this shawl. but too bad i'm not satisfied with the result. 

so enjoy yourself with this picture :)

this is the pattern which i drew all over the shawl. see some detail in left and right? it called isen-isen. 

which stands to umm..detailed patterns which made by canting. 
 isen-isen is what makes Indonesian batik looks so unique. the more it detailed, the higher it cost haha..

picture above is shawl tag for my shawl assignment. contains the brand and a lil bit babbles.

i try to made it like clothes or price tag if we buy something in dept. store

beside shawl, i made tote bag too! uhh i just love my handmade-batik-bag, but it hasn't return yet after i submitted it T_____T

just like the shawl, i made something too accompany the bag. in this case is kinda portfolio about the batik tote bag.

the front side of the porto. it was A4 sized.

i'm in a rush making this porto so i just grab myself as the model haha..i'm wearing the tote bag!

 

well done! so do you enjoy the post? hmm just gimme your support to add more crafty and artsy thingy to my blog, darling :)

i'll see you around!
xoxoxo

Ternyata Nilai A Bisa Menjadi Beban..

ask why.


hari ini hari pertama saya memulai tugas menjadi asisten dosen untuk matakuliah Gambar Teknik. aslinya mbak susan sang dosen sudah minta saya dari kapan hari tapi beliau nggak ngubung2in saya lagi jd yowes ta pikir gajadi.eh kmarin lusa taunya aku dismsin lagi, diminta dateng hari jumat buat bantuin ngasistensiin kerjaannya maba.


ohmaigat.



jujur aja brapa hari trakhir ini saya lagi kacau gr2 DKV2 yang ketinggalan progres awalnya, jadi blakangnya saya ngejar2 tu progress setengah mampus. alhasil baru tadi pagi saya nyiapin buat masalah asdos2 ini. seingetnya sih masih nyimpen gambar kerja taun lalu pas ngambil gartek tapi ko ga nemu ya..tau2 inget klo smua tugas gartek udah saya buang demi efisiensi kamar kos. arghhh!!!paniklah saya ngebuka2 binder lama dan alhamdulillah banget masi nemuin catatan gartek lama yang alhamdulillah banget banget lagi ternyata masi cukup lengkap sehingga masih bisa merefreshkan otaklah dengan materi2 gartek ini.


dodolnya pas saya dateng ke kampus jam 7 kurang ternyata saya gapunya nyali buat masuk kelas duluan akhirnya saya milih nunggu dosennya dateng duluan. sayapun duduk2 aja di selasar. mbatin lama banget ya dosennya dateng. lama gitu nunggu pe jam 7an lebi tau2 ada maba yang kluar kelas saya tanyain aja.



'eh garteknya uda masuk blom?'
'uda'
(kaget, ga percaya)'masa?dosennya uda dateng?'
'udah'



dan ngacirlah saya langsung ke kelas gartek dan found that klo dosennya emg uda dateng bneran huehehe..(rupanya saya ga merhatikan pas dosennya masuk kelas gr2 keasikan melamun di selasar)



honestly saya kaget brat melihat kelas yg sedemikian banyaknya diisi mahasiswa (75an orang) dan sebelumnya cm dihandle 2 dosen (mb susan n pak joko). jd bener saja klo butuh tenaga tambahan dlm hal ini (saya n mas agus06). awalnya si nervous apalagi pak joko nyebut2 ke maba klo nilai gartek saya A (dan mereka ber-wah wah). wah saya jadi takut ni, takut salah takut lupa materi dsb (walopun sudah membaca catatan dan sedikit banyak masi ingat apa yg saya pelajari dulu). mendadak nilai A jadi terasa menyeramkan. seolah dengan nilai itu brarti saya dianggap sudah master huhu..padahal rasanya ilmu masi cetek2 aja.

alhamdulillah pas mbak susan ngasi materi tyt saya masih cukup paham jadi klopun maba minta penjelasan Insya Allah saya masih bisa menangani. tapi saya agak gugup duduk di depan maba2 ntu dan pas keliling2 liat progressnya maba saya juga agak sungkan2 gimana gt apalagi saya kan memang agak pemalu hihi tapi saya coba aja tanya2 ke mereka gimana kerjaannya dan ngasi penjelasan klo ada yang nanya. saya sih maksudnya berusaha bersikap ramah dan menolong, saya ga pengen jd asdos yg kesannya sok gt huhu (soalnya slama ni blm perna ada asdos yg sok, dan sy gmw jadi orang yg dianggap demikian). terlebih lagi gartek taun ini lebi berat materinya. ditambah kelas yg besar jadi kemungkinan mahasiswa ga ngerti saat dosen njelasin juga lebih besar. beda sama taun saya dulu yg dipecah2 per duapuluhan orang kelasnya jadi klo ga ngerti dosen juga bisa ngebimbing satu2.

di akhir masa tugas saya hari itu tyt para asdos dikasi tugas suru ngasistensiin.wah duduk dengerin maba berkonsultasi masalah desainnya lalu mencari solusi sama2 rasanya sangat..menegangkan. mungkin mereka takut desainnya ga diterima, saya takut klo solusi yg mungkin inisiatifnya dari saya masi kurang membangun. tapi saya berusaha mengabaikan ketakutan2 ga penting itu dan mengasistensi sebaik yg saya bisa. saya sih inget2 kata ibu saya aja waktu cerita saya disuru jadi asdos dan takut klo gabisa menjalankan dgn baik. ibu saya bilang anggap saja pengalaman. dan kalopun saya merasa takut gabisa atau gmana2 toh yang memilih saya kan dosen. jadi pastilah saya dianggap cukup mampu untuk menjalani tanggung jawab ini.. oh mom, you dunno how it mean..love you!



pada intinya..sekali lagi kita bisa belajar dari kehidupan sehari2. masalah sepele panik karena agak2 lupa materinya gartek membuat saya inget sebuah tanggung jawab dari sebuah nilai A. bukan hanya nilai bagus yang tercetak di transkrip, lebih dari itu, sebuah nilai sempurna mengandung pertanggung jawaban; apakah benar kita sudah layak mendapatkannya?


nilai A tidak selalu didapat dari nilai2 yang sempurna. ia bisa dari pembulatan, bisa juga dari standar akan kesempurnaan itu sendiri yang berbeda2. saya sendiri jadi lebih tersadar bahwa ya, saya tak boleh hanya paham materi tersebut saat saya masih menempuhnya. kedepannyapun karena saya mendapat A, dianggap mampu, ya saya harus bisa tetap memahami materi tersebut, sampai kapanpun. karena bukankah itu inti dari kita belajar? bukan hanya untuk pengakuan atas sebuah nilai, tetapi lebih ke mendapatkan ilmunya bukan? dan kalau hanya ingat sesaat akan ilmu tersebut lantas lupa dan tak mampu menerapkan apakah bisa dikatakan kita telah mendapatkan ilmu tersebut?


itu menurut saya lho..bagaimana menurut anda semua?

Art Injection 2: Musim Panen

Oh oh i hope i’m not too late writin about this. Last 3th February till 7th my generation, the 2007’s guys held our college task exhibition! At first it was DKV work and we planned to held it in MagnetZone but then our Head of Major Studies (haha is it the true call?) tell us to let the Interior and Produk guys join into, so we have to move to bigger one. And it goes to Taman Budaya Jawa Timur, or we call it just by Gedung Kesenian Cak Durasim.

Ohh lot of fun there! It was our second exhibition outside campus. The first one was Art Injection: Nationalism Issue which held last year on Tomodachi Resto and Gallery. And we planned to make it as tradition so we called this exhibition as Art Injection 2: musim Panen. Why Musim Panen? Haha it was the most asking question. Ok first we took ‘satu semester menanam kini saatnya menuai hasil’ as the tagline. The philoshophy is we relate all we have did in the last semester as like the farmers when they planting their paddys. All the hard work to make the paddys grow up. And now is the harvest time for the farmers! All they have did before pay off after seeing the paddys harvested nicely! So like us! After spending one crazy semester, gettin stress much of time, hate ourselves.. finally we passed it all with nice score ahaha.. yea all the artwork we took in the exhibition was the best of the best score off all. Still we’ve problem in space so it the artwork need to be curated :)

The DKV’s sent their children books, cover book illustration and the stillation poster. And some cut paper and diagram illustration. The Interior’s sent their cottage mockup and the Product’s show their best on mask craft, airplane and car modelling. those all were our task in the last 3rd semester.

awesome airplane modelling by the Product's

haha..it is the nice one picture taken by Dipo.
Yudhis is peeping from Prita's cottage mockup
(the one who get the highest score, A!)

stillation poster by DKV's

the Product's work again

I get some of my artwork took there too! Kinda narcism haha..please dont blame myself :p

left to right, up to down:
cover book illustration, stillation poster, stillation, children book

and kinda narcism again! haha thanks for Risma, making this kinda funny-satire poster :p

i've got something in my head..

In the closing night we’ve film turning by Si Ikin. Yea such a honorable for us to get a chance being the second premiere place (haha) of his newest animation movie, Grammar3. Unfortunately i didn’t get some pictures of the riot cause that time was my turn to keep in the information desk :p

Many people come, even people who we ever think will never come to such an exhibition! Ooh Si Ikin really works. We also have some indie movie in cooperation with Sinematografi Unair. After that we have some bands parade by my mates’ band, Smeelstreet, and also Hi Mom! One of my Surabaya’s favourite indie band. and then all i can say is yeaa.. we come in the end of the show!

But still haven’t finished yet for the commitee :P

clean up those trashes guys :p

Thanks for Despro ITS, Taman Budaya Jawa Timur, all the media who put our work in their article, radio and TV show, the 2007’s, all the band, si Ikin, APS and Sinematografi Unair, all visitor- yea i can’t enjoy all the moment cause busy of you but thankssss for coming and support us!

Some photos taken by me, the other were Dipo’s property